On Monday, we received the most amazing packet from
http://www.halfthesky.org/ . They paid for
Lili's care at the orphanage during her first year and a half of life (an
amazing organization!!!). The packet contained 8 or so photos and
journaling that was done every three months. It was so fun to see her as a little girl. The
hemagioma on her cheek was flat and not raised like it is now...was very interesting to see.
Also, we have made flight arrangements for
Lili's surgery. This sounds so odd... but... I'm really going to miss snuggling up to her little face and getting warm by her
hemangioma. The
hemangioma is a bunch of blood vessels so it is warm... I love it!!! but, we know that life will be easier for her without it.
My brother, Nathan, posted a blog on his site last night that made us all sad... but it was good to see. He took pictures of Ryan's room when he and my parents went to pack up Ryan's belongings after he died. It was really hard to see (I appreciate Nate and my parent's for doing this... I don't know if I could have). Ryan took me to his very, very humble
apt in
November when we went to visit him. It was spotless and very
homie.... anyway... here is the link to
Nate's blog...
http://therichfam.blogspot.com/I must add...
even though we are so so sad over Ryan's death we are still able to find peace. We are able to smile - there are just moments. Sometimes there are lots more moments than at other times. We love him, we remember him, we miss him. but at the same time we are seeing miracles through Ryan's death. These are all very personal to our family but they are happening. These don't take away the missing times but do make the missing times more do-able.
Please pray for us next week as we go to Vegas to attend the coroner's inquest... it may be the most difficult thing we ever have to go through (listening to the police officer's
reasoning's for taking such drastic actions) but we feel it important to go and show support for Ryan. Hope we feel that peace that he always prayed for. Peace xoxo