On Monday, we received the most amazing packet from http://www.halfthesky.org/ . They paid for Lili's care at the orphanage during her first year and a half of life (an amazing organization!!!). The packet contained 8 or so photos and journaling that was done every three months. It was so fun to see her as a little girl. The hemagioma on her cheek was flat and not raised like it is now...was very interesting to see.
Also, we have made flight arrangements for Lili's surgery. This sounds so odd... but... I'm really going to miss snuggling up to her little face and getting warm by her hemangioma. The hemangioma is a bunch of blood vessels so it is warm... I love it!!! but, we know that life will be easier for her without it.
My brother, Nathan, posted a blog on his site last night that made us all sad... but it was good to see. He took pictures of Ryan's room when he and my parents went to pack up Ryan's belongings after he died. It was really hard to see (I appreciate Nate and my parent's for doing this... I don't know if I could have). Ryan took me to his very, very humble apt in November when we went to visit him. It was spotless and very homie.... anyway... here is the link to Nate's blog... http://therichfam.blogspot.com/
I must add...
even though we are so so sad over Ryan's death we are still able to find peace. We are able to smile - there are just moments. Sometimes there are lots more moments than at other times. We love him, we remember him, we miss him. but at the same time we are seeing miracles through Ryan's death. These are all very personal to our family but they are happening. These don't take away the missing times but do make the missing times more do-able.
Please pray for us next week as we go to Vegas to attend the coroner's inquest... it may be the most difficult thing we ever have to go through (listening to the police officer's reasoning's for taking such drastic actions) but we feel it important to go and show support for Ryan. Hope we feel that peace that he always prayed for. Peace xoxo
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That will be difficult to be there. I can understand the importance of being there for Ryan.
ReplyDeleteThose notes and information about Lili are priceless.
I love you Melanie! xoxo peace - mom
ReplyDeleteThere are so many times that I still feel the loss of my brother. I remember so well those feelings you describe--times when you'd realize you were happy and enjoying yourself and then feel sad that he isn't enjoying those things with you. Thank Heavens for eternal families.
ReplyDeleteI hope it all goes well. I'll say a prayer for you.
It will be a special thing to read the notes and see the pictures of our Lili when she was younger. What a treasure that was to get!
ReplyDeleteWe pray that the hearing in Las Vegas won't be too hard to bear and that somehow you will find comfort in being there. We truly will be glad to come to take care of the kiddos if that would be a help to you. Still don't know about Cody's temple arrangements.
We love you and love your blog!
We'll be praying and thinking of you--
ReplyDeleteKimberly
Peace. -leslie
ReplyDeleteyou will be in our prayers.
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